the next couple of posts are letters i will never send to my ex. the context is that she came back, she tried bridging our problem...i told her to shove it...but i wrote these anyways.
I get it, you don't like nerds, that's fine, I always saw it, that you didn't respect me, or the way I am, I get it. But you owe me an explanation, you owe me that much, because you came back to me, twice, or you tried, what were you thinking, that since you are I am? That the world can be seen through your mirror?! You came back twice, to do what? To insult me?! To remind yourself who I am? Who I was to you? Because you didn't get that, on the best day we've had you didn't get the real me, and that's why it was crappy, because we talked so much, and you didn't know me, and you still don't. You came back twice, I don't like you, but that still means something, why? Why did you come back? What did you expect? What do you want from me, I tried giving you what I thought you needed, a clean break, and that didn't work, and messy did, so I did that for you, even though it felt horrible to me, so what do you want from me? What the hell is your problem that you have to be like that towards me?
I might be wrong, but it sounds to me like she came back because she really wanted you back...but then you rejected her so she defended herself and insulted you and hurted you even more. A person who comes back twice doesn't do it just to "insult" that person...according to what i learned in psychology, it's just a self defense. and again...maybe you should learn how to forgive and forget.
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